One Train May Hide Another
NICOLE HOELLE
Inspired by the Kenneth Koch poem of the same name

One day may hide another day.
That is, the day when everything is made of tracks, and cars and streets and lamps and worn out shoes, which yell when you walk
Hides the day which holds the ocean inside it, the ocean letting itself loose out there so that we may see that life is not really made of streets and lamps, and is not really these words that grind and jostle against our jaws in the blue-light of the television: the day, the hidden day, the day of the ocean, carrying with it secrets and planets, solar systems, and secret speeches of all things.
One night may hide another night, as the one that crowds up against your feet looks so large and luminous and real like a great big multi-colored beach ball,
But really there was another night and another, and many others which hung around along the way, up and down streets, in cars, under sheets.
One feeling may hide another, as you turn to rage, and want to squash someone like an orange, and feel your teeth like nails
When in fact hiding behind is some ball of tears, all squished together inside your throat like a stuffed suitcase.
One dream may hide another dream, as the one that hides behind is a scared, scarlet-faced and freckled kid with skinny arms that hang at his side like wishbones.
One sound may hide another, as this whirring fan in the hot L.A. night covers all the moans, moos, seagulls secretly squealing, squawking inside you, and inside these deadpan alleyways.
One life may hide another, as the one abiding all these years does so in strange, outdated shoes and songs, and is still screaming inside to the sight of him imagined through store windows, down the blocks where gusts of you moved, as though nobody and nothing had, or would ever move again, on those old New England blocks, driven over by freeways in hot gutting suns, and years that stand up, and speak with something much more grown-up, much more important to say.
NICOLE HOELLE is a half Italian native of the northeast and a longtime California resident. She is currently getting her MFA at University of California, Riverside. She first studied poetry with the late poet, Michael Gizzi. Her poetry has appeared in Barrow Street, New American Writing, Jacket Magazine, Nedge and is forthcoming in 146 Poems of Love. She is also a Playwright, Fiction/Nonfiction writer, Teacher and occasional actress.